Losing It

I have been away.  I have not felt good due to the car accident.  I am having a hard time doing just about anything.  The one thing that I am doing is being very careful of what I am eating.

After having to ride in the ambulance to the hospital, I realized that I need to do something now about my weight.  I was so embarrassed when the parametrics had to move me.  I understand that the cart is on wheels, but I know that they did not like doing that job.

I also had the representative from the insurance company come out and say that we needed a bigger vehicle because I was a bigger person.  I know that he was not trying to be mean, but I also know that I do not like thinking that I am a big person.

I have to start working on what I  am doing and make sure that I start working hard.

I do know that I did not put the weight on over night, and I will not lose it over night.  I just need to work hard and start making a difference in my life.

I have been working with my doctors to improve my sleeping condition, and in turn my weight loss problem.

I have been told that I am going to have to go in for surgery. I have a deviated septum and I have to have that taken care of.  I also have to have my tonsils removed.

I have been waiting to have both because my youngest son is still nursing.  Now that it looks like we are coming to the end with that, I need to schedule both of these.

I am hoping that with the surgery it will help my sleep apnea and my weight loss.

One of the most difficult parts for me with losing weight is the fact that I have a problem sleeping.  Sleep is so important to help your body heal and re-charge.  With out a proper night of sleep, losing weight is not possible.

I have to wear a mask, so that I will sleep better.  The problem is, so many nights I do not feel like I am getting a good night sleep.  It is difficult to sleep when you are stuck in a small area.

I hate being on a chord, and not being able to move.  I hope that things will change soon,  but until that I will have to sleep on a leash…

Last year I was diagnosed with sleep apnea.  This was a frightening diagnosis.  I did not know much about the condition, let alone feel that I could ever be effected by it.  What I knew about sleep apnea was it was a condition that you stop breathing in the night when you are sleeping.  You could die from this condition.  I was very concerned when I found out that I was diagnosed with this condition.

After talking to my doctor I found out that I don’t stop breathing.  I have a mild form of sleep apnea.  My oxygen drops down to a dangerous level.  While I am still breathing I am never getting a good night sleep because my body is constantly waking itself up so that I can raise my oxygen level.  I was never getting a good night of sleep.

I realised that something was wrong because I was constantly tired.  I wanted to sleep more and more but never felt like I had got enough sleep.  I also was working out very hard and I just was not loosing any weight.  I just did not feel like anything was going right, and I knew that something had to be wrong.

After having a sleep study, I found out that I had sleep apnea.  Now I wear a cpap machine at night that measures the pressure of my breathing, and when it starts to drop, it forces air so that my oxygen will not drop.  It takes a couple of days to get used to wearing it, but it does make all of the difference in the world.

The best thing I ever did was go to my doctor and talk about what was going on, because now I am doing something so that I can be rested.  Also by getting a better quality of sleep, I hope that this will help my body do what it needs to do so that I can loose the weight